Some times I quite simply ache for uninterrupted time with people. I want to spend time with my brother, just him by himself, I want to have time to see what unfolds between us. I have certain friends and other members of my family, with whom I long for tracts of time… I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to invite you to dinner because you will bring your spouse. I want quality time alone with the spouses too. I want us to do nothing so that I can have time to see what unfolds between us.I suppose that this is the longing that is talked about in children; for ‘quality time’ with their parents.
I used to find my need for people difficult to handle and saw it largely as a weakness on my part. Wanting something from someone used to cause me great stress. Today I know it for the onset of my personal maturity. I have lost my need to pin, just wanting someone to sit with me and grow with me, on a justifying activity. Inside myself I know that this longing for quality time is evidence of my heart opening, my shame healing and my courage to face the real task of life head on emerging. Today I know that this need is the highest thing within me. Today, I am calm, humble and happy.
Today I come to understand that I need no justification, least of all drama or conflict, to legitimate my need for others time and company. Today I allow myself to need for no reason at all.
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